I'm St. Rugglin!

I don't know what it is!!! Something is really messing with my mind right now. I'm wanting to go back, and live with what use to be. But I know that's not right. Something is just pulling me away from what I know is right, and trying to get me to do things. Things that I have no true desire for, but I just can't help it.

I'm being pulled in three different directions, I know I can't do those things because (1) Student Government (2) it's wrong and (3) I don't need to go back there...

But sometimes it's just so enticing........

WHAT AM I THINKING!?!?!?!
   I can't go back, I just can't.

God has such GREAT plans, and I just can't do what I use to....It's not right, it's not fair, it's just not.....

Life can suck

Life can suck sometimes.
Life can just be down right mean.
Life can be so hard.
But life GOES ON!

Patiently I will wait

I'm waiting patiently, crying but still waiting.
Things don't always go the way I want
But I'll sit here and wait for what you have in mind

Sometimes I may hurt,
Sometimes I may cry
But don't you worry I'll be waiting

I want to follow what you have in mind,
No matter how hard that may be

I want to live for you,
And not fall behind.

Just help me through this time,
When I feel so lonely,

Lord, you are all I need,
Just let me remember that.

Being patient is sometimes the HARDEST thing in life!

Sometimes I just want things to happen when I want them to happen
I do NOT want to wait, but I need to!

Waiting, remain, rest, stop, halt, pause; linger,loiter, dally; informal stick around, hang out, hang around, kill time, waste time, kick one's heels, twiddle one's thumbs; archaic tarry.

all synonyms for Waiting…being patient…leaving it all up to God.


Sometimes I think that my clock is set a little (or a lot) faster than Gods. I'm ready for SO much in life. However, I guess God has His clock at a slower pace than mine. I'm ready to get out into the world, and start my true life. I am ready for my life to BEGIN!


But, I need to be patient, to wait, to "twiddle my thumbs." God has something wonderful planned out for me. Something that I can't even imagine!!
   

The People.

God has put some pretty amazing people into my life. There have been the good and also the bad. But I'm learning to let go of the bad.

Pslam 25:7

Remember not the sins of my youth and my rebellious ways; according to your love remember me, for you are good, O LORD.

Things happen in life, our world is a fallen world and bad things will happen. It's not that God wants bad things, but our world has been cursed cause we sin. But God is a forgiving God. He doesn't abandon someone if they come and seek Him out. God is good all the time, and all the time God is good!!!

God has placed some pretty amazing ladies in my life to help me through the good and bad. He always brings someone to help you out. 

I don't know where I would be with out this girl!
She has been a TRUE blessing from God. I'm blessed to have her in my life

Again this girl has been there for me through thick and thin.
I love her, and God has blessed me with our friendship!

To be like a child...

I was given some wise words today from a great friend.

~when we are young, we feel that it's alright to cry, to express our true emotions. But something happens when we grow up. We feel that we have to hide it, to almost be ashamed of our emotions. Don't be afraid to cry, don't be afraid to show that you are human. God is moving, and that's how the Spirit is moving inside of you. Don't hide your tears, don't hide your emotions. Let them run down your face! Let them come freely and feel!! Feel emotions, feel Gods endless love for you. ~

ok that may have not been her word for word quote, but that's what I got out of her saying. I need not to be afraid to cry in front of people. I need to accept that I have emotions, and that it's alright to show them. I need to accept that God is moving in me, and that He is changing something drastic inside of me. I need to accept that! I need to accept that!!!!

God is moving on this campus, He is doing GREAT work now! And He wont stop just because the week is coming to an end, and that our speaker will soon be done. God will ALWAYS be here! God will ALWAYS be moving. Sometimes it may seem small, or non existent. However, God is at constant work in someones life. God is always working in some way. God is always.

I need to not worry what others maybe thinking if I go to the alter. It doesn't matter what they think anyways. It's God and me that matters. That's it! As simple as that. Forget everyone else there. I need to focus only on God my Father!

My blessings

God has blessed me with SO many things; friends that drop everything to help me out, parents that sacrifice everything for my happiness, and forgiveness that I don't deserve.

God has forgotten everything that I've done in my past. My mistakes have been wiped clean from my slate!

Thank you God, Thank you for all that you have done. For dying, for rising, for coming back someday!!!

GOD YOU ARE GOOD!! ALL THE TIME YOU ARE GOOD!!!!!!