AHHH Christmas

It's Christmas time! The excitement is filling the air, but something seems missing...but what? I'm not truly sure. Could it be the filling of something empty inside of me? like I'm not fully whole? or is because I'm 5 hours away from home right now, and this is the first time. I think it's the second one. I love it down here, don't get me wrong...I just want snow again. There is none down here at all :( and I don't know how much longer I can handle it.

Now I don't want you to leave reading this thinking that I only love Christmas because of the snow and presents, cause that is not right! The whole reason for Christmas is in the name it'self... CHRISTmas....CHRIST! He is the reason that we even celebrate this holiday...HIS birth! God is to good to us, we don't deserve a thing that He gives us. He is all that we ever will need!

What I'm Thinking

So I'm sitting here in my dorm wondering exactly what brought me to this college? Like every person in my family has walked on the sidewalks here. Why did I want to follow them? Why did i come here? At first I wanted to be totally away from what every other person did in my family. I wanted to get away from the normal thing in my family. Maybe it was a security blanket, but it couldn't be that if I wanted security I would have gone to JBU. I had friends there, a lot of them. I knew NO ONE HERE!!!!

I may not know exactly why I ended up here, but I'm happy that I have. I can NOT imagine myself any where else in the world. I don't know what's going on in my future, but there is one that does, God.

Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

I don't know what He has planned for me, but it can't be terrible. He will not allow anyone to go through something that they can not handle. All I ask from Him is to be by my side in every step that I take while I'm a student here. Help me through relationships with others.

This college, it's all I can ask for. The friends I have made so far, they are incredible. I love them already. God has been truly good to me. At first I hated it here. I had no friends, and I did not know what to do with my time. I was totally alone, and that's something I'm not good at. But I'm happy that i stuck through it. God has shown me so many things about myself that I never knew. He has provided for me in so many ways that I can't even begin to describe.

Halloween Weekend

So some may know that my birthday is Oct, 30th. Well that means the next day is Halloween!! Such a fun day :). Well as some may also know i was never allowed to par take in any of the festivities that went along with Halloween, my mother swore it was the Devil's birthday. Well this was really the first time i went out and actually dressed up, like bought a costume, and celebrated it. See my college put on this little shin dig, not that great...but after the students put on a dance. That was sooo much fun! Just danced the night away with my best friends and all was good.

oh my roommate is about the BEST person EVER!!! she stayed up till 4 in the morning decorating the room for me. I just couldn't believe that. KATIE i love you!!!!!

Who I am

Who am I? well, someone might say that I am loud and out going, but they have it all wrong. I like my quiet time, to be alone and isolated. I am a child of the Living God, and loves Him till death. I am Deborah Ruth, a full time student who loves to be surrounded by friends. I am shy at first, can be anti-social, but eventually I come out of my shell and will be "all up in your grill." That's who I am, a girl that is like, what Shrek would say, an onion, I have many layers. Once you start to peel them, you get to know the real me. You will also come to my core, the core of me is my faith.