Sunday, November 6, 2011

Patiently I will wait

I'm waiting patiently, crying but still waiting.
Things don't always go the way I want
But I'll sit here and wait for what you have in mind

Sometimes I may hurt,
Sometimes I may cry
But don't you worry I'll be waiting

I want to follow what you have in mind,
No matter how hard that may be

I want to live for you,
And not fall behind.

Just help me through this time,
When I feel so lonely,

Lord, you are all I need,
Just let me remember that.

Saturday, October 8, 2011

Being patient is sometimes the HARDEST thing in life!

Sometimes I just want things to happen when I want them to happen
I do NOT want to wait, but I need to!

Waiting, remainreststophaltpauselinger,loiterdallyinformal stick aroundhang outhang aroundkill timewaste timekick one's heelstwiddle one's thumbsarchaic tarry.

all synonyms for Waiting…being patient…leaving it all up to God.

Sometimes I think that my clock is set a little (or a lot) faster than Gods. I'm ready for SO much in life. However, I guess God has His clock at a slower pace than mine. I'm ready to get out into the world, and start my true life. I am ready for my life to BEGIN!

But, I need to be patient, to wait, to "twiddle my thumbs." God has something wonderful planned out for me. Something that I can't even imagine!!

Sunday, September 25, 2011

The People.

God has put some pretty amazing people into my life. There have been the good and also the bad. But I'm learning to let go of the bad.

Pslam 25:7
Remember not the sins of my youth and my rebellious ways; according to your love remember me, for you are good, O LORD.

Things happen in life, our world is a fallen world and bad things will happen. It's not that God wants bad things, but our world has been cursed cause we sin. But God is a forgiving God. He doesn't abandon someone if they come and seek Him out. God is good all the time, and all the time God is good!!!

God has placed some pretty amazing ladies in my life to help me through the good and bad. He always brings someone to help you out. 

I don't know where I would be with out this girl!
She has been a TRUE blessing from God. I'm blessed to have her in my life
Again this girl has been there for me through thick and thin.
I love her, and God has blessed me with our friendship!

Thursday, September 22, 2011

To be like a child...

I was given some wise words today from a great friend.

~when we are young, we feel that it's alright to cry, to express our true emotions. But something happens when we grow up. We feel that we have to hide it, to almost be ashamed of our emotions. Don't be afraid to cry, don't be afraid to show that you are human. God is moving, and that's how the Spirit is moving inside of you. Don't hide your tears, don't hide your emotions. Let them run down your face! Let them come freely and feel!! Feel emotions, feel Gods endless love for you. ~

ok that may have not been her word for word quote, but that's what I got out of her saying. I need not to be afraid to cry in front of people. I need to accept that I have emotions, and that it's alright to show them. I need to accept that God is moving in me, and that He is changing something drastic inside of me. I need to accept that! I need to accept that!!!!

God is moving on this campus, He is doing GREAT work now! And He wont stop just because the week is coming to an end, and that our speaker will soon be done. God will ALWAYS be here! God will ALWAYS be moving. Sometimes it may seem small, or non existent. However, God is at constant work in someones life. God is always working in some way. God is always.

I need to not worry what others maybe thinking if I go to the alter. It doesn't matter what they think anyways. It's God and me that matters. That's it! As simple as that. Forget everyone else there. I need to focus only on God my Father!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

My blessings

God has blessed me with SO many things; friends that drop everything to help me out, parents that sacrifice everything for my happiness, and forgiveness that I don't deserve.

God has forgotten everything that I've done in my past. My mistakes have been wiped clean from my slate!

Thank you God, Thank you for all that you have done. For dying, for rising, for coming back someday!!!


Monday, September 19, 2011


Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they’ll soon discover
That I don’t belong

So I tuck it all away, like everything’s okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I’ll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone who’s been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who’s traded
In the altar for a stage

The performance is CONVINCING
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

Chorus x2

Well if the invitation’s open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin’ so small

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

My God is GOOD!

Tonight at my school we had our worship service called Kingdom Come. I L.O.V.E this service!!! As a community my school body comes together and just worships, we worship our creator for one hour straight!
 I love that so much, I love that my school comes together to worship God or father! If the one hour was not good enough, a group of students went out and worshiped till 2 in the morning AFTER Kingdom Come. It was amazing to say the least. We gathered together to sing and to pray with each other. I absolutely loved this time! Laughing, crying, singing, praying, and being a community of believers together.
It's just so cool and awesome to see such Godly men on this campus finally. To finally see what God wants us to do, and to see men leading the way.


Jesus Paid It all

I hear the Savior say 
Thy strength indeed is small 
Child of weakness watch and pray 
Find in me thine all in all 

Jesus paid it all 
All to him I owe 
Sin had left a crimson stain 
He washed it white as snow 

Lord now indeed I find 
Thy power and thine alone 
Can change the lepers spots 
And melt the heart of stone 

Jesus paid it all 
All to him I owe 
Sin had left a crimson stain 
He washed it white as snow 

It's washed away! All my sin! And all my shame! 

And when before the throne 
I stand in him complete 
Jesus died my soul to save 
My lips shall still repeat 

Jesus paid it all 
All to him I owe 
Sin had left a crimson stain 
He washed it white as snow 
Sin had left a crimson stain 
He washed it white as snow 

Oh praise the one who paid my debt and raised this life up from the dead (x6) 

Jesus paid it all 
All to him I owe 
Sin had left a crimson stain 
He washed it white as snow 

Thursday, September 1, 2011

I want to be called B-E-A-UTIFUL!

I have never been swept off my feet, or called beautiful. I want to be someones special someone. I'm scared though to even put myself out in that situation. I want to be called B-E-A-UTIFUL I want to have that special someone who is always there. But I don't want to just give my heart away to anyone, I want to be picky about this kind of thing.

Monday, August 1, 2011

A new year, a NEW start

A new school year is about to start, and I can NOT wait for it!

Last year was a real learning year for me. This year I KNOW who I am, I KNOW what I stand for, and I KNOW what I want in life.
I get to finally start my major classes! I can not wait to start the path to the rest of my life.
This is going to be the year with no regrets, no HUGE let downs, and a year to never forget!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Military or not to Military

I have made a decision. If in 2 years I do not have a full time teaching job/ I'm not married or a VERY serious relationship I am going to join the air force.

Or I'm pretty sure I want the air force. There are so many different types of job opportunities in the force. I think that I want to be a photographer. I have 2 years to figure this out still. I think that I would do a good job in the military. I think that it might actually be a little fun.

Friday, June 3, 2011

Oh Iowa...


State Abbreviation - IA
State Capital - Des Moines
Largest City - Des Moines
Area - 56,276 square miles
Population - 2,926,324
Name for Residents - Iowans
Major Industries - agriculture, food manufacturing, insurance

Iowa, where you never really know what is going to happen here. All small towns and nothing much to do. It's almost a perfect place for me. I LOVE the small towns, don't get me wrong there. It's just I want to have something that I can actually do and not have to drive 2 hours to do it.

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Go out into the world and Make disciples of all nations...

I want to TRAVEL! I want to get out of this small town and finally live! To get out of the everyday life and experience something totally new!

I just have a heart to travel. I want to be able to serve God with my traveling, with education. I want to go out in the world and help the young generations. I want to show them God's endless love.

I want to follow God's great commission. To go out into the world and make disciples of all nations. I pray that God allows me to go into this world and spread is word.

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Summer Reading...

This summer is being devoted to
1) summer class
2) working on the farm

So far I'm on my second book, I know I had a slow start. But I am catching up FAST!!!

Book one: "Water For Elephants"
A WONDERFUL book! two thumbs WAY up from this reader! The author allows the reader to just become a part of the book. I just could not put the book down!

Book two: "The Help"
I'm a little half way through this book. And again, nothing bad at all to say about it! Again, just can not put the book down once I start.

Saturday, May 28, 2011


I'm taking a summer class, and it's all online. Every week we have two test to take that are due by midnight the next Sunday. So I was trying to be the good student and finish the test a day early, and it looked like it was only 30 questions (about the same length as the first test). And the after question 30 there was not a NEXT button. So I thought I finished the test, and then I went to go look at my scores...What did I find out? I failed, not just it was a close pass, but completely failed. So I look over the test and I find out that there are 60 questions!!! what the HECK! So I e-mailed the professor, so hopefully he'll understand and either...

1) he lets me take the test over again
2) he scores the test of what I finished.
I just NEED an 'A' in this class! I can NOT afford to fail a single test!


I wish I was better at things.
I wish I was able to just jump in.
Why do I get scared?
Why do I just run?

Sometimes I wish I had a different personality. I'm able to talk to almost anyone, anyone but the people I really want to talk too. I do not know what it is! I get all tongue tied, dried mouth, mind running, butterflies in the stomach, totally silent. there is just something wrong with me. I'm never able to be myself, and I WISH I could change that.......I WISH!


They say "home is where the heart is." I find this hard to believe sometimes. I LOVE being home with my family. I love my family. But, sometimes my heart is still left in Kansas. I love being in Kansas. I love the people, the city, the STATE! So if home is where the heart is, can home be in more than one place? can I have more than one home?

Wednesday, March 2, 2011


Life has logos.
 Life puts labels on things.

What am i labeled with?
 What does the world see me as?

I hope that they see Christ. That they see a light beaming out of me.
 I want to be the salt to the world. to make a bland world have flavor.
  To be fisher of men, and bring them to Christ

I don't want the labels of the world.
 I want the labels that God has given.
  I want to be in HIS army.
   I am HIS and HE is mine.

Someday HE will return,
 and I will be in HIS Kingdom!