Tuesday, June 29, 2010

What is the answer?!?!
I stay awake at night, unable to sleep. Nothing is filling my head; what keeps me awake? I'm home alone, so there is no one to bring me down. Right now in my life, I would rather be alone. So what keeps me Awake till 2 am? I do not know the answer!!
My body is tired, but my mind is wide awake. I close my eyes, and no peace sweeps over me. I feel like jumping out of bed, and leaping towards the sky. I miss the stars, i miss being able to gaze up and look at the wonders that God has created. I miss home.
I miss my parents that provided my every need for me. They give so much, and I only wish to be half of what they are. My parents; give and want nothing in return. They are the best people that i know. My parents; sacrafice all so that I might have everything. They love and they give. My parents; I want to please them, I want to make them proud of what I do. My parents; they would die for me, sacrafice themselves so I wont feel pain. My parents; they love me, nomatter what mistakes i make. They love me no matter what i do.
I miss my home, my friends, and camp. I miss the security of it all. I grew up to fast, Can't I slow time? can i go back in time? Go back to simple times? make some other coices? i miss HOME, the boringness with my friends. Trying to find something to do, and complaining about it all. I miss security. The feelig of being loved by the people i live with. I miss a good night sleep, and dreams that are fairly tail like, I miss it all!


sleep, please come to me. I miss you like a best friend. Sleep, how long has it been since I have enjoyed you? it's been far to long my old friend. please, come and rest upon me. flow through my body and take up room in every place. take me to the lands where anything and everything is possible. Allow my mind to wonder in miraculous ways. I miss my dream world, i miss the colors and the way it left a taste on my tongue. sleep, it's been to long. please, i don't want a one night stand with you. i want you every night. come to my bed, and lay with me. sleep, come and make my eyes heavy. take me on a long trip. allow my head to hit the pillow and not have the strength to get back up till morning. sleep, you are what i want right now; you are all i need. sleep, consume me, make me be your slave for the night. i want you to take me. i want you to shackle me down to my bed, do not allow me to get up. sleep, i miss you like a best friend. Now, just return to me.